Surgery

I'd never thought I would ever want to go and watch surgery performed, I've never considered being a doctor or following that career. Never thought I'd want to be in the same room as someone being operated on and taking pictures of the process but thats exaclty what I did the other night, on two seperate occasions. Emidio not only delivers babies for just about everyone in Valença but he also removes lots of ulcers. I followed him one night to two different ulcer removals, the first was in a private hosiptal and took a little over a half an hour, the second was in a public hospital and took almost two hours. Each time I was given my own scrubs to throw on and was allowed to be right at the doctors side both times, Emidio was assisted by another doctor each time who would help with various little things like stopping the bleeding or clamping certain parts of the operation. I was probably the most nervous one in the room each time, the second Emidio asked me to come along I started freaking out. Not because I'm a wuss, because I'm a sissy. During each operation Emidio would check up on me to make sure I hadn't fainted and before each operation I always made sure I knew where the closest trashcan was, just in case. As exciting as the operations were I think I'll always be haunted by the sound effects I heard, the crunches and the sloop slops of someone being opened up and arranged in a new way. I grew a new sensation of ackwardness as well! My legs developed a new kind of nervous shake which was more like me shifting my weight from leg to leg without knowing it. The nurses were all laughing at me which made me laugh and helped hide the fact that I wanted to cry the whole time. Surgery was great, terrifying and haunting but it was just another chance for me to be out of the comfort zone making people laugh at how manly I am.